There will be days that I am not myself. And that is okay. There will be days that I feel so disconnected and that not even my friends can pull me back. I know it hurts you so bad when I have these days, because it may seem I am mad at you. I tried to explain this to you. But it seems like you don’t hear me because you keep telling me that I’m hurting you. Can I tell you something though? These days are so crucial for recovery. I kept apologizing to you for not being being perfect pink princess. Do I really have to apologize for having hard day, or week? No. It’s okay if you feel hurt sometimes when all I am doing is trying my best. I don’t want to put your hurt on me though. So no, I am not sorry.