I was once the kid
swinging on the monkey bars
and running around the playground
along with all of my friends.
Happy,
carefree
and content.
I loved family trips to the amusement park
and playing games with my siblings.
I enjoyed long nature walks
as well as sitting by the pool side.
And then ED came along.
I thought that happiness,
contentment
and carfreeness
was replaced by
loneliness,
sadness,
and pain.
I did not think I would feel
that happiness again.
In my mind it was gone.
Completly.
Some years in recovery,
I am that girl once again.
I once again learned how to enjoy
and sit by the beach with some friends
and going to the mall to shop.
I love walking in the snow
and running in the sun.
I let the rays beat against my face,
and once again I feel
happy,
carefree,
and content.