Rewind

Sometimes I wonder if I could turn back the clock and change what I've been through? Would I? Would I make different choices to  hang the way I am now? Sometimes when the night is dark and pain is harsh, when the tears flow like rain. I wonder would I change? But I know I wouldn't because through the pain I found myself. I learned there can be good days and there can be bad days but that they never last. I learned that pain doesn't last forever and hope will shine through. I learned my looks don't define me. I am beautiful just the way I am. I learned that change doesn't have to be bad. I learned that opening up and allowing myself to cry isn't so scary. I learned there is always a rainbow under the clouds. I learned there is life outside my comfort zone. So, if I were given the chance to go back, rewind and simply press the delete button. I wouldn't. Yes, this is hard and no one can ever convince me it will be easy. But you changed me made me a better person, a better friend, and a better sister. And I know one day I will be triumphant. I will stand strong. I will rise to the top of the mountain. I will be happy and I will be free knowing you have changed me for the better.