“Though I have fallen, I will rise”

I made a mistake. I went back to old behaviors, thinking I am going to stay in control. I will do it once, and then I’ll stop, continuing on my recovery road. But that did not happen. I got pulled back and now I’m not in control anymore. The monster in my head is back bullying me, and controlling me. But I have the strength to pull out of this just like I did so many times before. I will pick myself up, tomorrow will be a better day. I will rise to this challenge. I will listen to the logic I’m my brain and remember all the things I’m trying to teach my heart. I am beautiful the way I am. I deserve to be healthy and happy. Nothing about me has to change. I am loved. I am worth this recovery. I want to live again. A life without pain, shame, and the misery of the eating disorder. Though I have fallen, I will rise. I will keep fighting, keep trying my absolute best . And one day I will finally be free.